Well.

I think maybe I have a sexual addiction. I'm finding it hard to believe that sexual addiction is a real thing, and that I'm not just completely self-destructive on purpose. Just saying "sexual addiction" makes me almost laugh because it sounds so absurd, but when I think about it it would really explain a lot. Like, the past 12 years...

I don't want to talk about this to anyone, especially not my boyfriend of over two years. He wouldn't understand.