Yep the ones of you that think I should have been graceful and handled things as an adult are right. The ones of you that think my behavior was over the top.........I agree. I am not sure where anybody got the effin idea that I didn't think that!! In those specific moments of distress I am glad for all of you who are confident in your ability to handle things like a "grown up." Well done for you. Seriously I mean that. If I could do it differently I would have, if I could have had a different emotional reaction I would have. Wow road trip in time.........Parents saying KC if you would just do this or would just not feel this way things would be ok. If you wouldn't act like this dad wouldn't do this. If you would have been a better driver you wouldn't have killed those people. If you were a better child we wouldn't have to drink.............. If IF IF.

IF I WOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT I PROBABLY WOULD HATE MYSELF LESS AND NOT FEEL LIKE ****. SO I WILL HAVE THIS THREAD REMOVED.......