I hate the holidays. They remind me of just how much I have NO ONE to really enjoy being with.

My birthday is this month, not looking forward to the disappointment of that day. I'm sure no one is going to do anything for me. My boyfriend is just really on my nerves right now so, I don't even expect him to do anything great. I just want to scream and rip my hair out and cry and disappear.

I have to keep going though. Everyday, the same crap. I swear if I didn't have my son I would run away and no one would hear from me again, except my mother. She's the only person that's there to help me, but she doesn't know how to show emotion, so I get none of that from her either.

I'm just so tired of living. 2012...do your thing, PLEASE!