No pills. No. It's just having a personal experience that I can connect with someone else's obvious feelings.

Until now, I never knew what was meant by taking pleasure in an "exchange," a "chat" or "talk" with someone else. Oh I took pleasure in the company of the girls I fell in love with. But that had very little to do with the normal human pleasure of everyday chat. I've only found out about that here on PC, as I said. Not in a chat room, but just in this kind of exchange of posts.

So I could finally identify and take pleasure in just talking with my wife, which she so obviously took pleasure in too. This may well be one of the reasons I have no friends. I'd suspect that normal people "make friends" with others who take pleasure in their company. It makes you feel good if someone else enjoys being with you.

But I've spent every conversation in my life just itching to be away, to be alone by myself. And I probably never even thought to try to cover that up. Who'd want to be friends with me? Take care.