After my middle child (25+ years ago) I had a two week period during which I was hearing voices, talking to and seeing dead people, and seeing what looked like 'static' in the world around me. After two weeks this ended with a spontaneous 'near death' sort of experience.

I never received treatment or even saw a doctor for this. My husband at the time decided I was possessed and left me. Shortly after he left I got into therapy and was diagnosed with PTSD.

Now though, when I ask professionals about this, I'm told, "Oh you probably had postpartum psychosis." But when I read the symptoms of postpartum psychosis, they don't seem to fit. I never had ANY urge to harm the baby or my family. I did not feel depressed, just freaked out by what was happening.

Does anyone have any experience with this? I have always wondered why this happened, especially why specific things happened (things many people would call delusional or hallucinatory). Now, I'm told again and again it meant nothing, it was all chemical.

But why? Do you know what I am getting at? Can anyone help me understand this?