My T is not like that. Early in therapy he must have sensed me straining to have intense feelings or something, and he said "you don't have to perform when you come here." That comment really helped me to see that I didn't have to have intense sessions each time. We could have mellow sessions without high emotions and still get stuff down. What he really wanted was me to come as I was and not try to force something that wasn't there. So mcl6136, I don't think all Ts are as you describe. Maybe you can check out that assumption (that you're doing therapy wrong, etc.) with your current T and see what he says.

This is how it has been for me too. When I was so contained and couldn't feel the pain and bad stuff, I also didn't have joy in my life. It was such a delight and reward to find that once I experienced some of those stored up bad feelings, I suddenly felt good things. Whoa! Fantastic. I remember once when this was first happening just sitting there and looking at T and saying, "I feel happy." That was so intense! Soupdragon, maybe you could use the thought of all those good feelings that will come as a motivator to work on the painful feelings.

Being Spock helped me get through my childhood, so I understand its value. I'm not Spock now, but it was really useful back in the day. Helped me survive, get through, etc. Maybe it's not all bad that you are not Spock?