No - but not because I would deny having the condition, but because I feel a lot like AniManiac with the 'making it up/hypochondriac' thing. When I was first diagnosed (I was 18) I was dating a guy who had 'manic depression' as it was called in those days. Now, while I'll admit it was somewhat coincidental to receive a similar diagnosis myself, everyone (parents, pdocs etc) wanted me to leave this guy, and either acted like manic depression is contagious or that I was 'copying' him.

So that's what I believed myself, despite further hospitalisations and even ECT - there I thought the doctor's were overreacting, because that's what my parents thought.

But now I am older, in a different country, in a different job, with a new pdoc - and I am again diagnosed with BPII. The pdoc assures me I am not making anything up and never was. But still... How does he know I'm not lying? He said 'we can feel it and we can tell'.

And also - have I really felt bad enough? Or good enough?

I guess it's safe to say no, I haven't accepted it.