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Originally Posted by ForeverAloneGuy
I hate myself. I had a friend, or thought I did. We drifted apart after I confessed having romantic feelings for her months ago as she just stopped getting in touch. She said I should have known better and since then I've had to give her space.
Eventually I reconnected with her on Facebook to try to see if she wanted to be friends ago, tried to apologise for upsetting her, ended up giving a long apology and saying how I was worried if I'd upset her. She said she never really considered me a friend anyway, found me too much hassle to deal with and told me she didn't care, didn't want to deal with me, then she blocked me on Facebook, stopped talking to me altogethor.
That was a while ago, and today I found out she's been talking about me to her friends, complaining about me, telling people I'm a waste of space and saying she regets ever having been nice to me in the first place. I already hate myself and have horably low self-esteem, I always have. And now she's been saying I'm a waste of space and I think so highly of her, she's so popular and well-liked.
I'm obviously a burden on her. I fear I might be a burden on any woman. As I've never had a woman be attracted to me and I'm in my late 20s I can't deal with these feelings of being so unwanted and considered so worthless.
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It sounds like she's really got her own set of issues if she's that mean to you. I mean I can understand someone saying hurtful things to someone if they are mad or upset with them... but to talk down to you in the ways that she did I honestly don't think you need to waste time thinking so highly of her.
I can't think highly of anyone who can bully or belittle another person in the ways that you described... it's obvious you care about her and value your friendship that you once had but you need to not put up with the emotional beating she is giving you.
You aren't a waste of space and remaining in contact with her is going to continue hurting yourse self-esteem... maybe you should just take a break and try not talking to her for a while and hopefully she'll get over whatever issues she has and apologize to you for how she has acted, but until then I'd recommend keeping my distance. Take care and good luck with your situation
