Ok I'm feeling lots of anxiety and I feel overwhelmed so I'm going to jibber my thoughts out into cyberspace. I have T tonight and I had went last week too. The first few times I saw her every other week but now we'll be going on 3 weeks in a row. She said at the beginning she believes the patient should choose the frequency but that has me freaking out. Like we don't even talk about anything because I'm afraid to. I don't even know how to open a window for her. So what's the point in going more often? Let's not even touch the logical financial side of this! She has a really good sliding scale rate so I'm not going to go there (I think I just did didn't I).

I posted last week about how I was afraid she'd give up before I was able to talk. And I just keep thinking about how I want to but I just don't know how. The thought of it makes me want to curl up in my bed (or the couch in her office as that's where I'm headed -i actually wore flats despite the wintery weather so that if I found some semblance of courage I could without getting it dirty)

Where was I. I don't like driving. This is only a new thing for me. I actually have to multi-task because the act of driving is so monotonous I tend to space out which I feel is more dangerous than typing out silly posts like this without looking at my phone. Fancy explaining that to the officer when I get pulled over! "This is the only way I can remember being in the car!"

That's all for me. I'll try to go be "normal" now