When she seemed upset I asked if she'd like some space (hoping I've give her a bit of time ot get over the shock of me having fealings for her) and she said "yes thankyou" and didn't talk to me, so I left her alone (and she was on holiday for a while and I hid a bit, and managed to avoid her), before getting back in touch about a month and a half later and she'd decided to forget about me, to "drop me" as she said.

I can't completly avoid her, we shae a lot of interests and common friends. I actually tried to shut myself off from all of that about 2 weeks ago until I was able to breifly pull out of the depression I was in, and went back to the things I enjoy.

She's so involved though, any of the charities or groups or meetups and things we go to, she volenteers for some job/role or other, and ends up with everyone there knowing and loving her. People seem to change their plans to accomodate her like she's the star of everything. The fact that somone who people seem to respons so positively to and seem to treat her as if she's so important considers me worthless, so unimportant, I feel like I care much more about what she thinks about me that what I think of me.