Hi, well you've said something that really resonated with me. When I was having my possible psychotic episdoe (I say possible because it went untreated and undaignosed, but I remember it and have talked it over with a pdoc,) Anyway, before that episode I would say I was depressed through my teens. It started when I was 18. I became very happy. Content with life. I felt that whatever had been wrong was healed. I had friends, getting A's in school, I even had a job.

But, I seriously believed a secrety spy agency had put up shop in a small office building in my neighborhood. They were draining all of the joy and happy energy out of the park, and they knew that I knew, and that I was a "powerful" person and I was the "caretaker" of the park. And they were out to get me.

So, I would advise bringign this up with your doctor or therapist.