Paranoia is a symptom of a psychotic episode, especially in the amounts that you are experiencing. I'd normally tell you to contact your health care provider as soon as you can, but you've pointed out that you're currently receiving help through the county hospital.

What I suggest is you do contact whomever you last dealt with in regards to your disorder and/or medication. An adjustment or switch to a different medication may be very helpful to begin to slow the psychosis down. The suicidal thoughts you are experiencing (regardless of your mood) are very serious.

Please contact a health care professional as soon as you can. Even if you're not being dealt with by a doctor at this time, a trip to a General Practitioner (doctor, GP, hospital clinic, etc.) is good enough for now.

Whilst you're waiting, try using distraction techniques to divert your mind from these distressing thoughts and paranoia. Do something you enjoy to keep you busy and your mind distracted. And remember... WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU.

If you need more help feel free to PM me ♥

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