Hi,

I have two thoughts on what you've said, both relating to my past experiences. First off, it sounds like you could be in a manic state, and rapid cycling -- even if you don't necessarily feel like it. Sometimes meds give you different feeling/acting episodes, and I've often not been able to recognize my manic episodes for days or even weeks. For me I think part of it is denial -- I just love it and don't want to admit anything's wrong. But if you're not sleeping, you're talking fast, and you feel hyper, you're probably in a manic (or at least hypo-manic) state. Even if it doesn't feel the same, the behaviors are there, so you're dealing with the ill-effects either way.

On the other hand, in ANY case your Pdoc was rude and unprofessional for LAUGHING at you for a perceived deficit on the part of your MEDICINE. I mean, unless she was laughing at the meds themselves this is totally unacceptable, unethical behavior. How appropriate that she'd want to talk about getting a license revoked... I'd make a note of this, and any other behaviors like this. If this continues you could report her to a licensing board, who could inform her that her behavior is not in accord with the standards for practicing (it may be a long shot, but at least you could have a bit more power over her ability to degrade you and others).

Is this a psychiatrist (MD) or psychologist? The former are usually not very nice... I seriously don't understand why you'd get in the field if you couldn't even respect people's problems enough to hold back from laughing. *Shudder* This has happened to me a few times, and it thoroughly disgusted me. You ask for help, not to be judged and picked on. Ok, enough of my rant. Is she a good Pdoc otherwise? If not, you may want to start looking for another (if this is at all feasible). Her attitude does not reflect dedication to listening to your needs and finding the best med for you. Good luck to you.

Jessie