I used the trigger icon and I tried to cut down the crap... believe me, you ain't seen all of the things that haunt me... so it bothers me to be called a fake or whatever...

I am sure that I have not seen all the things that haunt you Venus. I actually do my best to come forward and post my thoughts to your questions in your threads and I bring some thoughts, even give you permission to question as to question is normal. And I am not trying to attack you in my post here. And I am also for making efforts to embrace one's self and find positives and productive thoughts when we face personal struggles that confuse or effect us.

However for some, just thinking is not enough they truely struggle and need to keep asking for help. And just as it disturbs you to be called a fake, it also distrubs others who do try and can be accused for not trying.

Triggers? Often triggers are a good thing, if someone is triggered that means they need to stop and think about why they are triggered, could be something from their past they never resolved and need to think about more. I welcome triggers, and I truely have a lot of them, more than I ever realized. I have to see what is behind them, it is usually something that I didn't face or resolve in my past.

Often I see people lash out because they are triggered and someone gets hurt or angry and that can be a stinger from experiencing some kind of abuse, something that person just doesnt see yet or understand how to resolve it.

Any one of the members here at PC can be misunderstood because of either their disorder or past abuse that caused some lack, a lack they have not figured out yet. There can also be an assumption that someone is a mean person when they are not, and I see that as well. It is my hope that if I see that happen perhaps I can shed some light in a more productive way rather than just blow up in someones face and assume they might be something that they are not.

Anyway, my post here is not meant to lash out at YOU Venus. I just wanted to address the fact that not everyone can just think their way out. I know this from my own life experience. So, my message is to seek help and keep trying. Depression is a result of some kind of lack or health issue and it is important to not allow ones self to sink into such self hatred that they do something drastic. Along with some of the things I mentioned that can lead to depression I didn't mention the thyroid, that is also something every positive thought in the world cannot fix. I also worry about the constant use of birth control pills, on the pill, off the pill etc, and how that too can effect hormones that can lead to depression, not something one can positive think out of.

Venus I can see you trying, working at your struggles, expressing ideas. My concern was for those that battle depression and cant seem to do that and are triggered. If they respond to your ideas good, if not then it is my hope they dont take it personally and get worse. My overall message for all those that suffer is to keep seeking help. The brain is capable of doing amazing things, yes. It is important to understand what each members condition is possibly coming from and if one doesnt get there by positive thoughts, that doesnt mean that member failed, it just means to continue to seek help.

I honestly don't think anyone enjoys depression. However some do enjoy taking down time, something entirely different.

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