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Originally Posted by emptybee15
I hate the holidays. They remind me of just how much I have NO ONE to really enjoy being with.
My birthday is this month, not looking forward to the disappointment of that day. I'm sure no one is going to do anything for me. My boyfriend is just really on my nerves right now so, I don't even expect him to do anything great. I just want to scream and rip my hair out and cry and disappear.
I have to keep going though. Everyday, the same crap. I swear if I didn't have my son I would run away and no one would hear from me again, except my mother. She's the only person that's there to help me, but she doesn't know how to show emotion, so I get none of that from her either.
I'm just so tired of living. 2012...do your thing, PLEASE!
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It's crazy how I feel your pain exactly. I feel the same way about the holidays & my BDay is this month as well. Around this time of year is when my depression has hit it's highest peak. I hope you make it through the rest of this year ok. Good thing you have your son & mom to keep you grounded. I'm sorry that she doesn't show much emotion...I grew up with a grandmother who was the same, but I had to realize thats just who she was as a person. Keep your head up & just hang in there girly! Pm me anytime & take care *hugs*