Who made him judge?

He sounds like something of a jackass to me. Don't know who he is, but I DO know you are equally empowered with him to have feelings. Your feelings are every bit as valid as his or anybody else's.

Have you given him permission to judge you? And why in the world should his judgment of you affect your desire to live?

You sound like a person I'd much rather know than he is. I don't like people who go around judging the worth of other people. No one has that right.

Please think about why you've given him so much power over you. After all, he's just a jackass.