It's crazy how I feel your pain exactly. I feel the same way about the holidays & my BDay is this month as well. Around this time of year is when my depression has hit it's highest peak. I hope you make it through the rest of this year ok. Good thing you have your son & mom to keep you grounded. I'm sorry that she doesn't show much emotion...I grew up with a grandmother who was the same, but I had to realize thats just who she was as a person. Keep your head up & just hang in there girly! Pm me anytime & take care *hugs*