So it sounds like you are a SOMEBODY to your son and a SOMEBODY to your mom who does show her caring by helping you and a SOMEBODY to all these strangers here on PC who reach and support you here. So when you do get caught up in all these negative thoughts that are so easy to have this time of year, you need to pull these three FACTS out to contradict them. Repeat them again and again. You do have people who love and care about you.

Wishing you a happy birthday!