I'm glad you are seeking help now. I waited for many years not knowing about it. I have been through many things. anger, fear , hurt people and many things I can not undo. I did not know how to deal with things and I made things worse. some of the things I did I can never forgive myself for espicially when I was on drugs. I was not able to feell any pain when I was high or drunk. Now at 58 I have everything seeming to come up now I am having a hard time dealing with the things I have done so any help you can get its great. may God be with you and yours