When I initially told her I liked her, she didn't say anything mean, just started to act "cold" and drift away, it wasn't until I brought up the subject to see how she feels that she said I should have known better, and then months later when I brought it up again trying to apologise that she said these other mean things and blocked me.

Yes, I'm in therapy now. It's the 4th time now. Although the first 3 times I never mentioned my problem about women and feeling alone, and also they were before I met this particular woman. This time I've been talking about her a lot and I have another therapy session tomorrow. I hope I can forget about this.

I saw her a couple of days ago and we didn't talk, I imagined her thinking "oh no not him", and I was just thinking how pretty she is and trying not to look at her or act weird. Over the last few months, she's probably never even thought about me except on the couple of occations I've messaged her, but I'm thinking about her every day, and I feel pathetic, my life is revolving around someone who at worst hates me and at best just wants me out of the way.