It's getting harder. The sui thoughts are creeping back in but I don't want to tell anyone because I can't go to the hospital right now. It's finals week next week. No time. Trying to push through this. The problem with cyclical is that I know once the depression is gone, it's coming back. This makes it harder for me to want to stick around and keep taking it on the chin.
There are stressors right now and some triggers, but nothing I shouldn't be able to handle. Life is good enough, sometimes even great. But I still feel this way. I exercise, try to eat right, take vitamins and supplements....I've tried it all.
Sometimes I wish I'd thrown in the towel six months ago when I had the chance.