splitimage I am so sorry you are feeling so sad. But quit beating yourself up over your relapse! It happens to the best of us. I once tried to quit smoking went to class and everything everyone in class quit but me! Talk about a guilt trip! I beat myself up for months. Oh and by the way I still am trying to quit. Things will get better I know you can do it! My best friend lives 400 miles away think we talk more now than when we lived closer to each other. Send positive thoughts your way and hugs too!((((splitimage))))