Thank you Ani! And dragonfly, lad007 and dubblemonkey. Phew, I did it!

I did have to have a couple of drinks before hand (not condoning it) but I countered that by not drinking when I got there. No one seemed to notice. I didn't think I would be able to walk through the door at one point, but I looked on here on my phone and saw your message Animaniac, you would not believe how much that helped. I wouldn't have been able to go if I hadn't been able to write on here and get your support ((all)). I just wanted to say a massive Thank You!!! I am soooo relieved. Think I'm going to go to sleep now, I feel exhausted!

p.s. dubblemonkey, I hope you're alright. I know the feeling, I am here if you need to chat.x