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Originally Posted by PAYNE1
I seem to be having lots of problem with my memory overall and with concentration in general. I wonder if part of it could be how doped up I am on meds and part could be a component of being bipolar itself.
Anybody else notice this situation? If so, then why do you think you have them? Please don't tell me the Alzheimer's is setting in! Thanks for answering, even if your answer is "no."
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Yes, I have this issue. There are so many factors that could be playing into it, so I could never say for sure just what's going on, but (I think) we're in the same age ballpark, and Alzheimer's doesn't even enter my mind. There are just so many other things. My psych says each episode creates something akin to a sort of brain damage. Considering that my BP was untreated for about 25 years... hmmm.
The thing that I
really don't get? It's not a total constant or even sensible. These
sorts of things ... BF:"Did you ever see that movie?" Me: "Mmmm, don't think so, but honestly, I have no idea." So, we'll start watching it... "Oh yeah. The blue wall. Yup, must've seen it." So, I'll realize I
did see it, but don't remember anything useful! On the other hand, my favorite shows I'll watch numerous times. I can quote soooo many lines and know
every nuance. (One show, even from 20 years ago w/o having seen it for years). Then I'll be watching something new and pull together a bunch of these references, neatly combined into a new joke comment. Without having to even consciously think. BF will say, "Wha???". He knows all the same things, but often won't "get it" till I lay out the references, where they came from and how they fit together as a commentary on what just happened on the screen. It's bizarre. Also... like my most recent job... often requires paying attention to many things at once. And I do. Really well. (Maybe it is the fear of otherwise getting run over, lol.) Then, on the other hand, I'll look on say, Craigslist, and not even be able to focus on an ad. And want to cry. Sheesh, if I can't even read the ad, how could I ever do the job?! And when I go to fill out my mood chart at the end of the day, I usually can barely remember what happened. And when I do come up with something...Was that today? Or yesterday?
It drives me right up a wall. It's really shaken my confidence. I'm either totally confused, or totally on top of it. Just don't know which brain is going to show up.