I waited for many years not knowing about it. I have been through many things. anger, fear , hurt people and many things I can not undo. I did not know how to deal with things and I made things worse. some of the things I did I can never forgive myself for espicially when I was on drugs. I was not able to feell any pain when I was high or drunk. Now at 58 I have everything seeming to come up now I am having a hard time dealing with the things I have done I have had sex abuse mother and daughter they lived next door to me when I was 11, at 16, uncle abused me. growing up as a child I would wake up to my parents yelling and scraming at each other. Had something happened at military hospital that had affected me. My father tried to kill me three times. I sexualy abused someone. I had an ager problem almost went to jail for 20 years for it. A lot of this I will never be able to forgive myself. I jsut started theripy in Nov. anyone have any idea how long it may take to help put all this fear to an end