I met with a nurse yesterday for a consult in preparation to see a psychiatrist for their recommendations about my treatment. The nurse immediately told me after reviewing my files she believes that I do not have bipolar disorder. She feels I was misdiagnosed and have borderline personality disorder. It does sound VERY much like me. And I don't have highs where I feel really good constantly so she said it doesn't sound like I experience mania.

I am a little upset about the new disorder and worried it's going to mean more changes. I feel that the lithium is starting to help even though it's only been a few days. I feel more relaxed, less strung out and angry, anxious. I really would like the diagnosis for sure from the psychiatrist, but now I am worried they will try to change my medication. I think my doctor will listen to me over the psychiatrist, at least I hope, if they want to change the medications again and I let her know that I feel this is working and want to keep trying it. I need mood stabilization, regardless of what my diagnosis is.