<font color="#000088"> Hey Jessie -

Thanks for the response and do not worry about the length.... It gives me something to read - proactively - instead of just 'fishing' for similar experiences.... I do appreciate it ....

I suppose this is an episode bcuz I am starting to feel the hyperness (if that's a word - LOL) and knowing I am not sleeping right is a telltale sign, just as you stated... I guess it was kinda a denial as well, i.e. that it would be a while before the next episode.

To answer your questions, I see three different people. I see a Counselor, a Therapist (Licensed) and a Psychiatrist (MD). This whole ordeal was with the Therapist, not the others. ALthough you hit the nail on the head that Pdocs are normally not nice (you're lucky to get 10 mins w/them), but my therapist has never acted like this. I know she did say something to the effect that she wasn't laughing, but more disappointed that the meds haven't taken the effect she wants yet... Regardless, it is unethical and I'm sure that making anyone in our shoes feel worse, whether intentional or not, deserves an apology... We shall see come Tuesday..

Last, I'm literally stuck with the actual MD character until I get my Medicaid and/or SSA (good luck on the SSA, I know)... I hate to sound racist at all, as this isn't my intention nor belief, but I can't understand damn near anything she says. I constantly have to ask her to repeat things, which she 'jots down' bcuz she claims I'm not concentrating and it's attributed to the episode... Well, maybe if ya talked SLOWER and worked on the accent, I could understand ya!!! I'm already deaf in my R ear, so hearing is already an issue for me... I am glad I asked the Nurse if I had the correct dosage instructions (and I DID NOT by the way) bcuz I couldn't understand if she was saying "TWO" for the Seroquel or the Depakote ER; I asked if it was for the Seroquel and I got the "oh yeah yeah yeah - yes that it the two take for OK??" I could have easily mistaken it as FOUR, but at least I know pharmacology from my one course last year!!!

Anywho - thanks again for taking the time to respond and I hope all is well with you.. I'm hanging in here, all I can do. Take it easy ~N </font>