Hahaha! I can't believe you actually read any of it... sorry about that! thanks though,, i got a little laugh out of reading your post.. although i'm not sure you actually intended that. but thank you for writing back.

I do have a psychiatrist.. only thing is he costs $170 a session and it's tough to make an appointment with him in less than two weeks notice. and I'm leaving for Toronto in a week so I really don't have the time. And i think my girlfriends are sick of listening to me talk about this. I learned a long time a go that as well intentioned and caring as your friends may be, most people reach a point when the dont know what to say anymore and they stop wanting to listen.