thanks guys for your answers and support. I have tried researching this a bit, but felt I would get better info from those here at PC. Myself, thanks so much, you have really clarified things for me. I can see it is definately dissociation, and nothing else. So I guess I will just keep plodding along my uncertain path at this time, and try to just roll with all the punches that are thrown my way!! Hillbunnyb, I usually 'hang out' in the SI forum, relationships forum, or depression forum... There is an awful lot going on for me right now and confusion is the least of it!! Nice to meet you and thanks for the support. Songbird, thank you too- and of course NZ is a wonderful place!!! (Think about it, we are the same size as Japan but only have 4,000,000 living here... )