I can't hold a job. No matter how much credential I have, I always ended up getting fired or "laid off". I can't hold a relationship either, my marriage (due to pregnancy) ended up in divorce, losing my child to permanently live with my ex husband, and my ex boyfriends all said I am "crazy" or too unstable. They said they don't understand how I can change my mood so fast. My medication sometimes help, but, I don't know what to do. I feel so discouraged, I'm afraid to look for a new job because I feel like I will get fired again. I think I have gotten fired from every full time job that I had ever held. Maybe 4-5 of them within 4 years. I always can lend a job because of my credential, but now the employment history is very sketchy. I can't tell them I have personality disorder because they are corporation. I tried working for smaller firms, but each time I cannot get along with my immediate supervisor. Ever. I hate myself, and hate the cards that I'm dealt with, because I feel like I will just die a slow, painful death without ever being truly happy, finding a job, working with something I love and making a healthy living, and finding love.