I cant fall apart again. I dont have the money. I did in August. Was hospitalized for 6 days.

Two hours ago I was fine. I was happy and I was going to check my e-mail and a few things then clean the house and get the Christmas decorations out. I got sidetracked on the computer. I have been able to keep myself super busy that I haven't been able to think about it but I relaxed too long and now Im crashing. I know its been coming on for a while (since before Thanksgiving) but I cant get into my pdoc until next Thursday and I wont see my T until the 15th and i'm falling apart. Not just kinda falling apart. I mean really falling apart, the kind that usually lands me in the hospital.

Its Christmas, moneys tights already, I cant afford another hospital stay. I dont know what to do.

Too bad I cant just hold myself together with Christmas wrapping paper and lots of tape to get me through, its cheap this time of year.