Nic, you cannot be a lost cause, because you have been found.

Use the strength you have in depression and transform it into strength in loving your self. You are loved, and needed. Remember nicole, it was you and friends here inn this forum that helped me stop s/i-ing. Don't get me wrong I still have urges and I think I am pretty useless to the world at the moment, but as I know and I am sure you know thats not really the truth.
You have a lot to offer the world and your self. So do I. Its in this sharing that I find strength to be who I am. If I had not found psych central back in April I would be still lost and probably cutting. So I thank you nicole, and all my friends here (I know I can be a pain sometimes to people here and irl, but if it was not for this site, o.m.goodness I dare not think where I would/might be).

Be strong nic, and so will I be.

Big Hugs ((nic))