I'm not sure I follow why you are beating yourself up...or why you said your being a creep...imagination about potential people fitting into our lives is something I do.

To answer maybe some of the other questions...if a gay man asked me out on a romantic date, I would decline. I am a straight man. It would feel awkward to me, but I would move on. If I felt that person knew I wasn't gay but asked me out anyway I probably feel offended because I wouldn't understand the motives. I'm not gay what is the motive behind asking me out. How does your work reputation enter into this?