(((Lavendersteph)))))
It's hard when you have a parent that is abusive like that, and the other parent won't stick up for you. I know, I've been there, as many of us here, have. There's nothing that says you have to forgive him, you do what's in your heart to do, sweetie. Your mom is wrong for saying those things to you, and treating you the way she has. There is NOTHING wrong with you, and you're not a bad person, and if I was there I'd give you a big hug, but since I can't....
*BIGHUGSFORLAVENDERSTEPH*