I'm still very tired. But I get a break from chemo for a few weeks now so i should be doing a bit better in a few days or so.
I had some weird disturbing dreams though last night. so.. triggers involved probably so dont read if you dont want to.

In the first one me and my brother were running away from someone or some place. I don't who or who we were running away from. But I was so tired i had to sleep and it was dark outside so we hid in a bunch of fallen leaves. Someone walked up to us, a shadowy figure of a huge guy. My brother dived into a pile of leaves i just mainly moved to a corner of a fence till i couldnt go no further and he almost tripped over me and i was sure he saw me but he just walked away. Then it was day and we were in some kind of little public bus and i was struggling to get the door open so a girl helped me. She got of and it was like i heard what she was thinking about cause i told her we didnt need to get off the bus till the next stop probably. And she said or thougt something like 'they are waiting for them on the next stop haha). So we got of the bus anyway and walked in the opposite direction of where she went, to the docks.

Then another dream. I was sitting in a random church in a random city i dont know. It was a fairly big church but it didnt look like a church from the outside. It was full of people. There was a HUGE cross in the middle. Appereantly it was a funeral. I didnt know her. Two man carried an old lady inside the room she was sitting like in some kind of half egg shaped chair. She was totally grey hair clothes (if she wore any at all, im not sure) skin. I think she was dead anyway. They said they were going to crucify her before they burried her because they werent sure if she had to many sins to go into heaven so they had to do this to reduce the sins first. I was horrified and ran out of the church with my mom. Stopped a police officer on the streets. Told him and first he started running to the church but when i told him she was dead he was like well its not like its forbidden, we cant do anything against that.

Then me and my (older) brother went back to elementary school, our parents dropped us off in a little bus. My mom wanted me to kiss her but i said i cant do that infront of all these kids. My brother went to his class right away but as always when i go back to school in my dreams i wasnt sure what my class so i asked someone and then went to my class and sat down. Then they were all gone suddenly so i went outside also and had no clue where to go and didn't know where my brother was either.

Esp the middle dream freaked me out i dont know why my mind makes up this stuff :/