oh no LIT, it didn't sound bad. it sounded honest. you are aware of this behavior and where it takes you when you get up. maybe take a walk when you awaken. you can take your coffee too. anything-a change in habit-may ward off that craving. i used to talk out loud. the mind can't think two things at once. it will negate your thought of using. singing works well too. i used to do it in my car so i wouldn't drive into the liquor store! i got some funny stares from other drivers but if it works i didn't care what they thought.
i'm glad your day has started in a good way. good for you. that's an accomplishment.