The primary problem I'm having with this whole converstion is that we are allowing ourselves to be controlled by weight and using a dichotomus key of Skinny=good Fat=bad...why can't we change that thinking and use the thought pattern happy with our bodys = good self destructive behaviors = bad.

I can't say i'm a saint when it comes down to it myself. I have been struggling really hard this week...slipping back into pro ana thoughts. Although, when I look in the mirror, I really don't quantify my emotions on body shape anymore. I'm more governed over what or if I put something in my mouth. I think its a control thing.

I like control of something, and money has me ultra mega stressed lately and I feel out of control. Food is the reins of my life I suppose, although it doesn't fix my money problems, it takes my mind off of them for a little while.