Maybe you feel guilty over the whole thing and just don't know how to recognize it? I think if you had some help from a therapist or something this would be good to talk over with them.

Well... Yes, most of what I said were red flags (anorexia, losing touch with reality a bit, feeling not in control of my emotions, wanting to SI, etc.). But I was actually doing a lot better with getting most of them under control. And I know he only told my parents because he was worried about me, but still. I couldn't help getting upset with him when he had told me that he wouldn't tell my parents and then he did. Sigh.

My parents have reached out and have tried to help a few times, but every time they bring anything up that even vaguely relates to issues I have I freak out. I just can't talk to them about things. It hurts. I get shaky and light-headed and I don't even like thinking about it. I want to get help, but I just cannot talk to my parents about it.

I think guilt is a definite possibility. I just don't know why I am feeling this so intensely and acting the way I am. It kind of scares me.