I so didnt accept it when i was first diagnosed. I tried the meds, very briefly and then explained to my pdoc what I believed was going on with me. Simply put, I am just a very empathetic person. So much so that I can just walk by a person and all the feelings they are feeling will transfer over to me. That is the explanation for my rapid shifts in mood. I would just have to learn to protect myself better.

It wasnt until about five years later when i was in a terrible mixed cycle that most agreed i should have been hospitalized for, but no insurance, my bosses sent me to a psychiatrist who again dx'd me bipolar. She handed me a sheet that had like a hundred signs of mania on it. I could tick off about 94 of them. It was a little hard at that point to deny that I was bipolar. It was kinda a relief to see things on the list, Im like, wow,thats why that happens?