PTSD and high stress and anxiety that come with it is truely hard on the body, GI tract and muscles, headaches and I guess there is a long list. People who struggle with PTSD do feel a sense of a shortened life and can even struggle seeing any kind of normal future. You truely need to get into therapy to find ways to understand how you are being effected and can get to the point where you can learn ways to develope better thinking patterns, it doesn't happen overnight.

Just by reading your first rant I can see that your clumping a lot of tramas together in your mind. You need to slow down and get out of that hypervigillant state of mind, in therapy you will learn how to slow down and begin picking through the shattered pieces in your life and consciously find resolve.

For now, Open Eyes says, slow down you have to live in each moment right now. Your feeding into the trama, and your making it worse. Make up your mind that you simply cannot resolve all your issues immediately. So, your going to have to give yourself time to finally address YOU for the first time and you will find resolve slowy.

((((Take a slow deep breath, exhale slowly, gentle hugs))))

Open Eyes