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Hi i am currently in therapy for almost a year i am diagnosed with borderline personality clinical depression generalized anxiety i grew up in a very violent and abusive dysfunctional family my dad was the violent alcoholic my mom was on valium for her nerves i remember she attempted suicide i was 11 but i remember things from way back
i had to tend to my young sisters feed them clean the house and sometimes pick up my dad from the bar at 2 am i was 11 yrs old cops use to be called to the house every other day
we always had to sleep with clothes on and had an emergency bag ready to run because he come home violent and drunk and in the dead of winter we had to escape my mom and sisters sometimes we would hide in a dumpster across the street or in someones basement i would always wet the bed out of nerves
so to this day i started therapy at the age of 42 and i cannot wear pajamas to bed i sleep with shorts and a tee shirt my husband does not get it
i also cant have anything loud playing like tv or music because it startles me arguments between people give me anxiety sorry for the long description
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