Ok, i know what i'd tell somebody else, but i feel incredibly guilty for taking a break from sex. Part of it is, my bfriends ex wife slept in a separate bedroom, wouldnt even hold his hand, criticized his body ( which makes no sense to me ) and had an affair with a married fireman for 6 years. I want to make up for all that and give him oodles of sex, but i'm having flashbacks and not doing so hit right
now. I feel more guilty because i've been able to do a lot of stuff before. I just got triggered by some family stuff going on and im having a hard time functioning in all areas, including sex. I think he thought it was a one time thing. I go to counseling, i get better,
i'm cured. I dont think he realized that it flares up at different times. It's an ongoing thing. I wonder why i' m even in this world if i
can't function and bring him joy. Also, i already haf a lumpectomy and probably have to get another. Then i feel, i'll have even less to
offer bc he really likes that part of my anatomy.