Sometimes the heart is wrong.

I feel like you still hold some feelings and desires to be with this guy. I read a couple of the previous topics you've written about him at various times and he has given you a lot of heartache. But sometimes love sees past that and attempts to hold onto the good traits of the person, essentially ignoring the bad. It can even get to the point of knowing their bad traits, but denying them. I think you are actively denying there were/are any problems in this situation. I also think you can heal, despite the empty feelings associated with the 'break-up'. You really need to stay strong because you deserve better.

Think of it this way. Would you want your friend to experience this too?

Good luck.