I cut this morning (it was way early, like 1:30 or 2 or something).

I felt stupid about it for a while, and still do, but I want to do it again.

I had to go to 2 cemetaries to put stuff on the graves of my mom, my dad, and my grandparents. Now I just want to forget it all and make it go away.

I wish I couls just fall asleep so I wouldn't have to think about it, but sleep seems to be an impossibility right now