So, there's been a lot on my mind today. Existence, death, failure, government, health, etc...

I feel asleep this afternoon for a couple of hours and had this dream. It's kind of sketchy but the parts I remember are remembered well.

I remember first off being in my apartment the whole time. I have 5 cats. 2 adults and 3 kittens and they drive me crazy sometimes. Well, in my dream there are around 15 cats running around, most of the are black. They keep getting in the bedroom and I have to use a spray bottle to get them out. I yell and scream and rant and rave. Well, they continue to run around the apartment. At this point I get out this glass jug and proceed to chug from it. It's bright red and it's alcohol.

Well, every time I try and chug it, it chokes me. I get some of it down and then it creates a suction. Through the whole dream this keeps happening and I keep trying thinking "this time will be different".

Well, my mother is supposed to show up so I try and clean and hide things she would cause a riot over. Such as pagan books and things. I run into the bedroom and tell my SO that my mom is coming and to get dressed. He's stark naked and freaks out. I hear a door close and leave the bedroom. My mother and sister and some cousins have just let themselves in. I get really mad and tell them to "get the **** out and I never want to see them again." She says if that's how you really feel. Well, I did but at this point I kinda knew I was dreaming and decided to let her stay. Resolving the issue.

But I keep trying to chug it and it was bright red. I kept saying how I didn't care the low alcohol content or the fact that I choked. As long as I got it down.

Now, I don't drink heavily. I used to and I'm trying to curb alcohol altogether. I do smoke but no tobacco for me. (I didn't read any rules about such admissions. Sorry if this is against the rules.) I don't do anything else though.

What does it mean? I can kind of take a guess but I want your opinions. Thanks..