This is why I'm so scared to try most atypical antipsychotics. I've decided recently that I want off my tegretol, because it is causing memory problems (I'll want to listen to a certain song, but then I can't remember its name , or worse, I'll finally find the focus and motivation to read stuff for my classes, and then I'll forget 80% of what I've read) and hypersomnia (which paradoxically triggers an increase in depressive symptoms). Since I had an aversive reaction to lamictal, I think my pdoc will likely try either depakote or an atypical next. I'm so scared; my trim figure is one of the only things that I like about myself.

It's so unfair that so many people with MI have to choose between their mental and physical health. Also want to say that I think all of you are beautiful, regardless of weight. It's horribly cliché, but real beauty comes from within, and people like you who take time out of your day to log on here and support others who are struggling are very beautiful indeed.