So its 248am sunday morning ... and here I sit ALREADY worried about my appt on monday at 320pm with my pdoc ... Like i dont have enough to worry about.. I already know what med he wants me to try next after my epic fail on risperadal..

The Med is Fanapt ..Yep I have already researched it ... first released 2010.. typical sideeffects blahblahblah ,,little more about fainting and low blood pressure and heart issues than a few of the more common ones.. Yes all meds have sideeffects .. its said to be weight neutral ( HOORAY ) but of course NEW means expensive and im losing my insurance the end of the year so unless they can keep me in samples there will be no point in even starting it.

Problem is I cant seem to find any reviews on this medication from people who have actually used it ... I have read the companies "blahblahblah " info ( dont trust there opinion of there own medication),,but I prefer to hear from live people how the medication was/is for them.

I worry way too much all the time about something or another and if i ( gasp) cant think of something to wory about i will worry that i have nothing to worry about !!!!! ( yes all stuff im working on in therapy )

Sigh .. It just another nite of insomnia ( like the norm) and im worried about something that hasnt even happened yet ...

But hey I started LACTATING from the last new medication ,,,, soooo errrrrrr maybe its ok for me to worry .

I have slept about 9 hours total in the last 6 days .. So lack of sleep isnt helping.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend ~