Hi cdpaiva,

Nice to meet'cha.

Firstly, I am so sorry to hear what you have gone through for a large part of your life. It must be hard to deal with the fall-out of such things.

Secondly, it only takes one manic episode for a diagnosis of bipolar I.

Thirdly, I would urge you to go to a doctor and let them decide if you were manic and if you have bipolar or not. I mean, what do you have to lose? Even if you 'wait' for, and experience, another episode you still can't diagnose yourself and will need to go a doctor anyway, you know? And if you go now, and the doctor says it's not bipolar or whatever - so what? I'd go honestly - it's enough that you've had this low-ness for a long time. And ManicMiner is right - another 'high' could have worse consequences.

Best of luck to you,
BB