Thanks everyone for your responses. I think I'll go ahead and make an appointment with a doctor. I think I was hesitating to get help because for the longest time, it seemed like I was the only one in my family with a clear mind. My whole life I've felt responsible for them because they were suffering and I wasn't. Also, I just thought that the mania and depression would feel more drastic than they felt, but things probably don't feel drastic when you're the one experiencing them all the time. I'm gonna go ahead and get the professional second opinion. Thanks everyone. I wish the best for you all too.