Oh Spikerola, reading you rmessage was like reading my own story. The Psych doc did tell me that they don't like the benzos.

"anxiety and depression (yes, they go hand in hand) is there regardless of external circumstances"

That is true, but, I overlooked that fact. Thank you again. I have avoidant personality disorder which ties around fear of rejection and judgment. Perhaps by me assisgning a blame for my anxiety gives me an excuse to avoid it. The same as blaming men in general for past bad relationships gives me an excuse to avoid all men.

However, I don't want to get rapped up in self blame again either. In answer to your question "Would you say such things to your best friend?" You are right...I would not.

The funniest thing happened today in the open chats. A user gave us a web address for Chinese astrology and I was reading the traits of my sign (wood snake), and it said I am intelligent and graceful. Perhaps if we read our horoscope descriptions at times, it can remind us of our good points.